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Title:Take my advice, you'd be better off DEAD
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470.0. "Wash Post Article" by CXDOCS::BARNES () Fri Aug 04 1995 13:29

    Mods, move this if inappropriate..I have no permission to post these
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This article appeared recently in the Washington Post:
  
  WP   07/30       The UnGrateful Deadheads; My Long, 
Strange Trip ...
  
  The UnGrateful Deadheads; My Long, Strange Trip 
Through a Tie-Dyed Hell
  
  By Carolyn Ruff
  
  She jumped from a window of a seedy motel on Market 
Street in San
  Francisco.  From a room full of Deadheads she 
considered to be her
  family, she climbed out onto the ledge and then took 
one more step
  forward.  No one made any attempt to stop her.  I was 
on the street
  below and to this day remain thankful Iwas looking the 
other way.  I
  don't even remember her name anymore.  I suspect few 
remember her at
  all.
  
  We met at a Grateful Dead show in North Carolina.  It 
was the end of
  the Dead's fall tour in 1989, I had just completed my 
first full tour
  and she had finished what would be her last.  She was 
a bright,
  beautiful runaway from a loveless home in Pittsburgh.  
Like many of the
  hundreds on the tour, she was attracted to the scene 
around the
  Grateful Dead as much as the band itself.  In the 
Deadheads, she
  thought she saw family.
  
  When we saw each other again a few months later in 
Miami, I was shocked
  by her mental deterioration.  She rambled gravely 
about how her closest
  friends had stolen her clothes and her money.  She 
shamefully recounted
  having sex with men in exchange for food and drugs.  
She had lice in
  her hair.  She was hungry, lonely, miserable.  Another 
Deadhead
  suggested that she medicate with acid to cleanse the 
dark thoughts from
  her head, and then swim in the ocean to rinse theblack 
film on her
  soul.  This home remedy failed and a young life was 
lost within months
  of our meeting.
  
  That incident occurred five years ago, but recent 
headlines surrounding
  the Grateful Dead have taken me back to that time and 
to my own days on
  tour.  As the itinerant band celebrates an astonishing 
30 years on
  tour, it has been dogged by misfortune -- lightning 
struck fans earlier
  this summer at RFK Stadium in Washington, several 
dozen people were
  arrested outside a Dead concert in Albany and for the 
first time in
  three decades, a scheduled concert was canceled in 
Indiana for fear of
  crowd violence.  None of this can be directly 
attributed to the band
  itself, but the incidents are nonetheless beginning to 
expose a darker,
  more malevolent side of the Grateful Dead milieu.  
Contrary to the
  image laid out by the Deadheads themselves, life on 
tour these days is
  far from peace, love and smiles.  Capitalism, greed 
and betrayal would
  be more apt descriptions.
  
  Today's Deadheads wear the tie-dyed costumes of a past 
generation but
  aren't propelled by the same sense of moral rebellion. 
 If bygone
  Deadheads were protesting war and social strife, 
today's seem only to
  be dissenters from real-world monotony.  
Unfortunately, like many of my
  generation's discontents, they are cynical, savvy and 
unhappy with
  their lives.
  
  In my seven years as a devoted Deadhead -- including 
two spent touring
  the country -- I came to take for granted that people 
would steal from
  a friend's backpack and rationalize their actions.  I 
saw friends sleep
  with other friends' partners.  I saw young women 
sexually assaulted
  after being unwittingly dosed with acid.  I saw 
someone give a friend's
  dog acid just to watch it lose its mind.  I saw people 
stranded in a
  strange city because their friends were impatient to 
hit the road.  I
  saw people trash their friends' motel rooms, knowing 
that they would
  not be held responsible for the damage.
  
  With no legal system within the Deadhead culture, 
these injustices go
  unchallenged.  Thankfully, violent acts of retribution 
have been few,
  but who knows if it will someday come to that?  The 
common reaction
  when this sort of incident occurs is to get a bit 
meaner, shrewder and
  make a plan to do it back to someone else.  
Eventually, I came to
  dislike the music of the Dead because of the 
association I made between
  the band and its followers.
  
  It would be unfair to imply that all of those on tour 
engage in such
  loathsome behavior.  There are many who revel in the 
shows and
  demonstrate respect not just for their fellow 
Tourheads but for the
  cities they visit.  Their sole desire is to immerse 
themselves in the
  music and peacefully co-exist with others who feel the 
same.  But the
  dominant culture is not so sanguine.
  
  In an attempt to escape the society they so disdain, 
the Deadheads have
  created a world underpinned by the same materialism 
and greed.  Whether
  it be overpricing their wares or selling crack and 
ecstasy, the looming
  specter of capitalism rules supreme, and it is every 
bit as ruthless as
  that of the American mainstream.
  
  Newcomers naive enough to think otherwise quickly have 
their
  misconceptions dispelled.  I met quite a few 14- and 
15-year-old kids
  who came to tour without a penny and thought they 
could turn to other
  Deadheads for support.  Somehow, they thought money 
didn't hold the
  same relevance that it does elsewhere.  But unless 
you're a Trust fund
  Deadhead, sustained by the family fortune, everyone 
needs a scheme.
  Selling veggie sandwiches is one option, as is hawking 
jewelry or
  clothing.  To make these businesses go, some Deadheads 
trek to Central
  America between tours to buy the Guatemalan jewelry 
and garb so popular
  among Dead followers.  Others make their own products 
to sell.  And
  with a steady flow of suburban kids who have the cash 
to spend on a $5
  tofu burger and a $20 T- shirt, these entrepreneurs 
have an ideal
  location at Dead shows.
  
  But these business ventures take a level of initiative 
and planning
  beyond what most Tourheads are willing to expend.  
More typically,
  people make just enough money to cover food, lodging, 
their concert
  ticket and enough gas to get to the next city.  If you 
are not good at
  selling or at least scamming, you will not make it on 
tour.  Many
  Deadheads, while professing distrust and disdain for 
the government,
  make it by accepting food stamps and other public 
hand-outs.  A walk
  down the streets of Berkeley or San Francisco, a 
popular hub of
  between-tour activity, is evidence enough that many 
Tourheads are also
  adept at panhandling, although this is not a 
profitable choice for
  survival.
  
  The drug trade is also an easy and rather lucrative 
route to
  sustenance.  With perseverance, one can usually find 
suppliers of acid,
  mushrooms or ecstasy to resell, and the rising 
popularity of crack and
  heroin on tour is opening up new markets.  There is 
the nuisance of
  undercover agents from the Drug Enforcement 
Administration, to say
  nothing of fellow Deadhead narcs, but this can add an 
element of
  excitement to a new career -- which for today's 
Deadheads is a tonic in
  itself.
  
  My initiation to the Grateful Dead came in 1986 and 
coincided with the
  band's resurgence back then.  I was in college and had 
been more
  interested in the Clash and Flipper than wearing bells 
on my shoes and
  tie-dyeing every white shirt I owned.  But after going 
to a few shows I
  grew enchanted, with the band and with the hordes of 
colorfully attired
  people who seemed like happy children at recess.  I 
worked every
  conceivable retail job to finance my indulgence, 
choosing positions
  where there was little commitment.  With the money I 
had saved and the
  cushion of a few credit cards, I was able to traverse 
the country with
  relative financial security.  It also helped that I 
had family that,
  though preferring I settle down and get a job, made 
clear that I could
  rely on them if things got desperate.
  
  It might have been different had I joined the tour 
earlier.  One
  retired Tourhead who requests anonymity for fear of 
losing a
  respectable job says the late 1980s ushered in a more 
amoral
  environment.  "The demise of the Dead scene began in 
1987 when going to
  shows became like going to some sort of pop scene," 
says this
  ex-Deadhead who himself was eventually scared away by 
the violence.  He
  blames alcohol abuse for what he sees as an increased 
incidence of
  fighting, show-crashing and other disruptive behavior.
  
  Today's version of tour is a mockery of what the 
original Dead
  followers created.  There is an attempt to form family 
units, but too
  often they aren't bound together by loyalty and trust. 
 The members
  travel together, bunk together and, theoretically, 
provide the love and
  support that one might bestow on a relative.  And, to 
a degree, there
  is a sense of sharing: In spurts of generosity, one 
person or a few
  will support the others by buying the gas or paying 
for the motel
  room.  But typically this generosity is born of 
necessity -- everybody
  else is broke.
  
  Rarely do the relationships that develop transcend 
each person's own
  selfishness.  Usually, the break occurs over money -- 
someone feels
  they've been cut out of a drug deal, or grows tired of 
supporting a
  parasitic family member.
  
  To survive on tour, it helps to have emotions encased 
in steel.
  Courtesy is not mandatory and verbal assaults, rude 
comments and sexist
  remarks are common in the course of a motel room 
conversation.  People
  refer to each other freely as "sister" or "brother" 
but there was
  rarely the accompanying intimacy.  Practically 
everyone goes by a
  nickname -- Woodstock, Scooter, Zeus, Rainbow, Jinx.  
Often, I never
  knew people's real first names, and rarely did I know 
their last.
  There was a degree of secrecy which supposedly stemmed 
from a paranoia
  of the law, but sometimes I wondered whether going by 
a fake name among
  friends was just a way of preventing anyone from 
getting too close.
  
  So what's the beauty of it all?  The question for many 
on tour is
  probably: What's the alternative?
  
  "There is this core group of Tourheads who have 
dropped out of society
  and their only alternative is to follow the Dead," 
says Jill, another
  former Deadhead.  These people live for tour to resume 
each season, but
  quickly grow disgusted.  They boast of making enough 
money from the
  present tour to buy that land in Oregon and settle 
down.  But more
  typically their money is blown on lavish hotel rooms, 
expensive meals,
  beer and drugs.  Strung out and broke, they're left 
scrambling for
  someone to support them until tour begins again.
  
  And so a cycle evolves: Many may want to try a new 
life but have become
  ensnared in the tour culture.  Financially, they know 
no other way to
  make money other than selling wares on tour.  
Socially, whether they
  truly like them or not,the people on tour are the only 
friends they
  have.   Alienated and fearful of whatthe real world is 
about, they
  settle into what they know best: The Dead.  Every time 
there is a scare
  that the Dead may stop touring, I find myself worrying 
about the lost
  souls who know nothing else but the parallel world of 
the Grateful
  Dead.  Many are talented and have skills adaptable to 
the mainstream.
  It's those who use the Dead simply as an escape who 
will have
  difficulty adjusting to life without tour.  Sadly, I 
cannot picture
  their future.  They will surely endure the loss of the 
Dead's live
  performances, but can they handle the end of tour?  
That possibility
  seems ever more real with the current malaise 
surrounding the band.  As
  the amount of violence and police confrontation has 
grown, so have
  concerns about how to curtail it.  A group calling 
itself Save Our
  Scene has formed in an attempt to quash disruptive 
behavior.  And
  through newsletters and the Internet, band members 
have practically
  begged their fans to clean up their act.  If they 
don't, the Dead will
  stop touring, or so they threaten.
  
  In an open letter passed out to Deadheads at a recent 
St. Louis show
  and later posted on the Internet, the Dead told fans 
that "over the
  past 30 years we've come up with the fewest possible 
rules to make the
  difficult act of bringing tons of people together work 
well -- and a
  few thousand so-called Dead Heads ignore these simple 
rules and screw
  it up for you, us and everybody."
  
  Arguably, it is not the Tourheads who are responsible 
for the bad
  behavior, but local kids who view the parking lot at a 
Dead show as an
  invitation to party with complete abandon.  Tourheads 
can blame the
  less devoted concert-goers, but it is these 
"outsiders" who buy the
  goods that sustain the Tourheads lifestyle.  And it is 
the Tourheads
  who have created the atmosphere that is so appealing 
to revelers in the
  first place.  The Dead went on to say, "If you don't 
have a ticket,
  don't come.  This is real.  This is a music concert, 
not a free-for-all
  party."
  
  To me, the issue of blame isn't really relevant.  The 
real question
  is:  How long did anyone think the party could last?
  
  --
  
  Carolyn Ruff, a Washington Post news aide, attended 
close to 100
  concerts in her seven years following the Grateful 
Dead.
 

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470.1positive articleCXDOCS::BARNESFri Aug 04 1995 13:43395
from Steve Silberman:


The following contains my reply to the Washington Post.
 It is a reworked version of the essay that went out on 
AlterNet last week.
 Many of the grafs are familiar, but some are new and 
specifically
 responding to Carolyn Ruff's piece. 

I hope they find room for it.  Enjoy!

 The Dead:   30 Years on the Road
 by Steve Silberman
  
	The Grateful Dead are on the road for their 30th 
year, but that 
isn't news.  It's no glitzy, grab-the-bucks, "hell 
freezes over" reunion 
tour enshrined with a battery of MTV and VH-1 
appearances, a 
quick turn on Letterman, and the cover of _Interview_.  
It's a couple 
of dozen cities and 70 shows or so, load in, make the 
people happy, 
and load out:  business as usual.
	When the Dead have made headlines this summer, 
it's the 
tragic lightning-strikes and gate-crashing fans, 
nitrous-oxide 
purveyors and parking-lot predators which have been cast 
in the 
starring roles, rather than the music.  The fact that 
the Dead have 
kept up a fertile conversation in song for three decades 
-  in their 
quintessentially American synthesis of jazz 
improvisation, folk 
balladry, avant-garde soundscapes, transcultural 
rhythmatism, and 
good ol' time rock-and-roll redemption - takes the back 
seat to the 
collapsing balconies, the overdoses and 
seemingly-damning acts of 
God.
	Though the only accomplishment of comparable 
longevity in 
exploratory American musicmaking is, say, the Duke 
Ellington 
Orchestra - which suffered more changes of principal 
players than 
the Dead have - that's barely acknowledged, even by the 
Dead themselves.  
It's just Jerry Garcia up there under the lights again, 
spinning out 
another solo that lands nowhere you expect it to, 
singing in his 
broken angel's voice about trains, card games, and 
careless love.
	Garcia once quipped that the Dead, like old 
whores and 
architecture, simply stuck around long enough to become 
respectable.  They did more than that.  They managed to 
become 
the most financially successful touring rock and roll 
band in history 
without caving into industry homogenization or 
type-casting as a 
"'60s band," and without distilling the dissonant and 
unpredictable
edge out of their music.  Though the band's repertoire 
has become more predictable with the years, at nearly 
every show there's still one moment of pure discovery, a 
jam that 
goes somewhere it's never been before (and never will be 
again), an 
emotional peak which seems to boil up out of some 
primordial 
storehouse.
	I've been going to Dead shows, off and on, for 
all of my adult 
life.  Going to see "the Boys" (as Deadheads 
affectionately refer to
the bandmembers) in 1995 for me is like going back to 
the family house,
though families don't live in houses for that long 
anymore.  I look around 
me in the big halls, and glimpse faces I grew up with, 
kids when I was a 
kid who now bring their own sons and daughters to shows, 
to dance 
with them.  I also see the Deadheads who are young now, 
who must 
feel like they're hitching a ride on the caboose of a 
great American 
locomotive that's been steaming down the silver track 
forever, since 
long before they were born.  For them, the Dead must 
seem part of 
the natural world, like El Capitan or the Grand Canyon, 
inevitable 
and immortal.
	The Dead, however, and the extended family of 
Deadheads, 
are more like a fantastically intricate snowflake which 
has been 
sufficiently tenacious enough to drift over a glowing 
radiator for 
three decades without melting.
	At least part of the heat now being brought to 
bear on the 
Deadhead community is emanating from within, from the 
behavior 
of certain groups of people who go to shows.  I won't 
say "fans," 
because someone who trashes a room at the Motel 6, 
bulldozes an 
arena fence, and spends the duration of the concert in 
the parking lot 
hawking beer or nitrous is not there to enjoy the music, 
and 
obviously doesn't care if the Dead and Deadheads will be 
welcomed 
back to the venue the following summer.
	I'm no stranger to the sleazy entrepreneurs and 
patchouli-
doused petty larcenists who have attached themselves 
like 
suckerfish to the Deadhead touring community, vividly 
portrayed  in 
Carolyn Ruff's article in last Sunday's _Post_, "The 
UnGrateful 
Deadheads:  My Long, Strange Trip Through a Tie-Dyed 
Hell."  On 
the other hand, Ruff's story does not tell the whole 
story, or even a 
large part of it.  A longtime fan I know read Ruff's 
piece and 
objected, "It's like a microscopic picture of a tumor, 
not a portrait of 
the whole patient."  I agreed, but pointed out that such 
a cross-
section might be useful in a diagnosis.  Even die-hard 
Deadheads 
have been forced by the first-ever cancellation, due to 
fan misbehavior,
of one of the Dead's shows in June, to wonder if some 
cancer 
hasn't taken hold in this collective body which has been 
home to so many for so long.
	"Life on tour these days is far from peace, love 
and smiles," 
Ruff declares.  "Capitalism, greed and betrayal would be 
more apt 
descriptions," she continues, citing the scams which 
give a small 
subgroup of tour-followers the means to stay on the 
road:  rip-offs, 
double-crosses, injustices with no recourse in a 
community 
which prides itself on living outside certain laws.
	Part of the appeal of the Dead scene for kids 
who came of age 
up in "Just Say No" America is that Deadheads say yes to 
many 
things damned by the status quo.  In the '80s, when 
youth culture 
traded its gadfly outsiderhood for the MTV quick-cut 
hard sell of 
brand-name looks, haircuts, and attitudes, Deadhead 
society prized 
that which was handcrafted and individually expressive.  
Mass-
market ersatz tie-dyes were eschewed for hand-dipped 
one-of-a-
kinds.  Trademarked icons - like the distinctive 
skull-and-roses 
image that San Francisco poster artists Kelley and Mouse 
adapted 
from a 19th century illustration for _The Rubaiyat of 
Omar 
Khayyam_ - became elements in an original folk-art 
vocabulary, 
hand-stitched into dresses and denim jackets and 
silkscreened on t-
shirts, to be sold at prices well below those at the 
local 
mall.  In the parking lots outside of shows, impassioned 
circles of 
drummers locking into their own deep groove attracted 
more 
dancers than tapes of the band.
	"To live outside the law," cautioned Bob Dylan, 
"you must be 
honest."  Heads put a premium on that kind of salty 
honesty that 
leaves no room for pretense, or for the self-serving 
duplicity which 
metastasized throughout the American body politic in the 
very 
decades that Dead crowds swelled from an intimate fan 
base to a 
stadium-filling phenomenon, attracting notice from the 
likes of 
_Fortune_ magazine.
	This find-your-own-way attitude carried into 
areas of 
personal conduct.  For thousands of years, people have 
used 
psychedelics like peyote and psilocybin mushrooms, 
usually in the 
context of music and rituals passed down by tribal 
elders, to attain 
sacred states, and gain essential insights into the 
meaning of being 
human.  It is in this traditional spirit that many 
Deadheads use 
these outlawed substances - so that some Heads refuse to 
call them 
drugs, preferring, in the manner of the Native American 
Church, to 
call them sacraments.
	The incidents cited by Ruff, of Heads being 
"dosed" against 
their will by fellow Heads or similarly abused, are not 
only contrary 
to the law of the land, they transgress Deadhead 
extended-family 
values.  In a culture which values the sanctity of one's 
own mind 
above obeying local drug laws, committing someone to a 
psychedelic 
experience against their will is obviously a violation 
of the Deadhead 
prime directive.  The people who Ruff cites as exemplary 
"Tourheads" - raping, feeding drugs to animals, 
abandoning their 
touring partners - would very quickly find themselves 
outcasts from 
Deadhead society, which survives, and protects its own, 
by 
maintaining an intimate word-of-mouth network,that now 
extends 
into cyberspace.
	The phrase "misfit power" is heard often around 
the Dead 
scene, a tribute to the fact that the Dead have kept 
their collective 
gaze set firmly on what was essential for their own 
growth as 
musicians - maintaining the acuity of listening, 
remaining open to 
the next whim of the Muse,and technically proficient 
enough to do 
Her justice - without regard to industry fashion.  
Additionally, since 
"Deadhead" is an honorific title one bestows on oneself, 
the Dead 
scene is singularly inclusive.  In researching our book 
on Deadhead 
culture, my co-author and I interviewed Republican 
Deadheads, tie-
dyed lesbian Deadheads, sober "Wharf Rats," lawyers who 
sport J.Garcia ties in the dock, Deadheads of color, 
"trustafarian" 
Heads on the family dole, Deadhead sociologists, 
Deadheads-for-
Jesus, surgeons who unwind after an operation by 
spinning tapes, 
orthodox Jewish Deadheads - and the aides to one 
Deadhead who 
happens to be married to the Vice President of the 
United States.
	Before the paving of the information 
superhighway, the Dead 
community gave kids accustomed to suburban anomie a 
place 
where they could link up with something larger than 
themselves:  a 
training ground in generosity for the offspring of the 
Me Decade, a 
road scholarship for learning to trust the instructive 
flow in the 
events of daily life.  And now, nearly a hundred 
thousand 
"NetHeads" have translated the open-minded bonhomie and 
care for 
the commonwealth they were schooled in on Dead tour into 
good 
citizenship on the Internet;  the kind of citizenship 
which doesn't 
require censorship to stand in for good sense and humane 
concern.
	For thirty years, the Dead scene has been a most 
miraculous 
beast:  an anarchic society on wheels, an ongoing 
experiment in 
practicing "random kindness and senseless acts of 
beauty," as one 
bumpersticker says.  Though tickets are harder to get, 
the venues 
are more cavernous, and the DEA has discovered that it's 
easier to 
slam Little Ivy sophomores bartering 'shrooms into the 
state pen 
than face down crack dealers, one thing that there has 
never been a 
shortage of on the Dead scene is joy. 
	As the world beyond the Tie-Dyed Barrier becomes 
increasingly conservative and belligerent, however, Dead 
tour more 
and more resembles a life raft in choppy, shark-filled 
seas.  For a 
group that defines itself as misfits and outsiders - yet 
welcomes 
anyone who clambers onboard - questions of 
self-discipline and 
guidance from within loom large.  One casualty of the 
mid-'80s 
Deadhead growth-spurt was a natural enculturation 
process, of 
older Heads taking younger Heads under their wing, and 
demonstrating by example what sorts of conduct have 
helped keep 
the community self-sustaining.
	To address these issues, a group of concerned 
Deadheads has 
founded a task force called Save Our Scene, which will 
work with 
Heads, venue staffs, and the media to ensure that Dead 
shows 
continue to be a boon not only to Deadheads, but to the 
local 
communities along tour routes.  More than "an attempt to 
quash 
disruptive behavior," as Ruff put it, SOS aims to 
reassert the 
primary values of the Dead community.  As Deadheads are 
allergic 
to dogma, one of the first tasks SOS faces is to 
formulate what 
those values are, in the absence of any authority more 
central than 
the hearts and minds of those involved.  The savvy of 
professional 
Deadheads who "got lives" beyond Dead tour years ago, 
and have 
learned how to be, as Walt Whitman put it, "both in and 
out of the 
game" of mainstream life, should prove of utmost 
practical usefulness 
to this noble effort.
	I feel sad that the 30th year of the Dead's 
creative vigor is 
being celebrated with ominous news reports, but the Dead 
have 
always been committed enough to their own creative 
vision not to 
be distracted by excessive praise or blame.  Jerry 
Garcia never claimed 
to be captain of anybody's trip but his own, for better 
and worse.
	At Dead concerts, during those breakthrough 
moments in the 
music when a vitality beyond words momentarily banishes 
the woes 
of the world, the teenage "newbies" and grizzled older 
folks who 
have been "on the bus" for light-years, turn to one 
another in a 
shared moment of recognition.  And through it all, the 
collective body 
dances, poised on the brink of a mystery.
	The headlines will fade away.  The music, 
transcendent 
memories, and workable models of community developed 
over 
three decades will not, because they are woven in our 
bones.
	Happy Anniversary, Boys.




Steve Silberman is the co-author of _Skeleton Key:  A 
Dictionary 
for  Deadheads_ (Doubleday '94).
His email address is [email protected].

(415) 681-3401
109 Alma Street
S.F., CA 94117

    
470.2DELNI::DSMITHWe've got mountains to climbFri Aug 04 1995 15:1112
    
    Sounds like the author of the first article was into the "scene" a 
    little too much.  Perhaps she ought to consider a career path in 
    socialology instead of journalism.
    
    She neglects to mention anything about those raging, stellar,
    performances that leave you on your hands and knees.  The kind that 
    when you exit the show it's hard to speak anything but "aahh duhhh".
    The ones that entice you to be on tour and make it all worthit.
    She needs a show! ;-)
                         
    I like the second clip much better.  
470.3get a clueCSLALL::LEBLANC_CIn n' out of the Gaahden they go!Fri Aug 04 1995 15:363
    YEAH!
    us undercover_DEA_narc_deadheads are a respectable bunch
    :^)