Conference waylay::singles_chat

    Well, the first thing that pops in my head is my weight.  
    But given that could/should change without divine intervention,
    I guess I'd really like to have 20/20 vision back again.  
    
    Internally, I'd have to say I'd like to be able to prevent
    my self-esteem from taking such a beating.  Seems every time
    I build it up and feel like perhaps I have *some* value as a
    person, I allow someone or something to just knock it right
    back down.  Then I beat myself for letting it happen ;->
    It was decimated by Angeline's father, and it's been a slow
    build since....but I'm getting there.  What I'd like to do
    is *stay* there!
    
    						cj *->
                                                      

    I think above all things I would love to be co-ordinated. I can't
    relate how much of an accident-prone clutz I am. For example.. someone
    mention embarassing stories.... this is Jim:
    
    I have a candy apple red turbo-coupe. I love this car.. but it hates
    me. My driveway is on an incline... one day I reached in the passenger
    side and knocked it out of gear. The parking brake (this one time out
    of a million) was not set. It rolled. I tried to run. I got my butt run
    over and laid out by the passenger door. (Are you getting the visual..
    it gets better) The cars is rolling out into the street, across the
    street and into the car across the way. Getting run over I had slammed
    my face into the pavement... and then was hit by the door in the back
    of the head when I tried to get up. In my dizzy state I see my car
    about to plow another car. I get up. I run after my car. I overtake my
    car and get BEHIND it. Squish. Neighbour's car is just fine. I end up
    with bruises on both legs, 3 cuts on my face and two punctures from my
    glasses, a big welt on the back of my head and a bloody knee where I
    hit the ground hard. BUT I was fine actually.... My poor car now has a
    dent where the door got pushed into the fender.. <sigh>.
    
    Embarassing is staggering to my feet and looking slowly around to see
    who just saw that and then to see the look on my roomates face when he
    comes outside and sees me meandering up the driveway and then seeing my
    car across the street half on the lawn, half in the driveway of our
    neighbour. He told everyone. Everyone. You have no idea the kidding I
    took for that (there's a bit more to it but that's essentially it)
    event.
    
    Even when Kevin my roomate got hit by the train.. everyone regurgitated
    the Jim-was-so-stooopid-he-got-runned-over-by-his-own-car jokes.
    
    Give me co-odination or give me death.
    
    A close second would be common sense.
    
    :-)
    
    Jim

    Re:2 + R:3 I have similar problems.. My dad was abusive and verbally
    demeaning to me.. So my self esteem is always waggling and is easily
    put down. I've found myself hard pressed at times to not put myself
    down too.
               As for being accident prone guess I'm just clumsy.. One of
    the worst incidences was while running across rte 9 from the Shrewsbury
    plant. Running in that area is pretty dangerous as it is.. Well I was
    running parallel to rte 9 waiting for a break in traffic.. I was on the
    median at the time. I saw my break and turned suddenly. Fell a** over
    tea kettle as a White Taurus bore down on me. Rolled back onto the
    median my pride hurt and my butt scraped... The woman in the Taurus was
    ok and waved at me.. The rest of the people around her honked and
    flipped me the bird.. The moral of the story at the time was that my
    weight to leg power ratio was out of kilter plus the patch of sand I'd
    slipped on didn't help any.
           On a world basis I'd love for all adults to see other people as
    little children see each other.. Didja ever see a little black,
    oriental, white, or ?? child sit down and just play with each other? 
    They're too young to be prejudiced and see another small child as a 
    playmate.. Sorry I know this is an overly simplistic view but people 
    aren't born with prejudices they learn it from peers and adults..
    
       Bob
    

    	I'd rather not have lupus...
    
    joyce

	A 28 inch waist with rock-hard washboard abs. And never
	having to do a sit-up to get them.

	20/20 vision? PRK laser will bring you close. I'm hoping to
	go for it later this year or early next. (AFTER I pay off
	the friggin VISA card)

						mike

    Ah, but Mike, insurance won't cover it and paying for it 
    myself is just out of the question.  I have someone else
    now that my every spare penny goes to.  (Well, with the
    exception of an occasional night out for me).
    
    						cj *->

    This is a nice topic. It makes you think. I too would like 20/20 or at
    least no astigmatism in one eye. Then I thought, maybe not suffering
    for 8 years with my back before it was fixed. Then I thought, maybe a
    closer relationship to my children/spent more time, etc. And as the focus
    shifted from me, it hit me (and someone in here could probably
    sympathize):
    
    
    Had my 1st children, Joy and Jessica lived...
    
    Steve

    
    	you're right Steve - I can...
    
    joyce

>    shifted from me, it hit me (and someone in here could probably
>    sympathize):
    
>    Had my 1st children, Joy and Jessica lived...
    
Yeah, me too, sort of...haven't lost any kids but have lost way too many close
family members...

Would rather not have the family history of breast cancer and Hodgkin's Disease
that I have to deal with...

Hugs Joyce and Steve!!!!!

B

RE: .6

	I hear you cj.. It runs about $1750/eye.. Not cheap, but...

RE: .7

	Having talked with some of the folks at the laser center
	in Manchester, they are hoping for FDA approval to correct
	astigmatism greater than what they now correct for. I'm waiting
	for that approval.

RE: .8

	In all honesty, if I could have just one thing, I'd ask
	for my brother Dennis back. I miss him every single day.
	It's been 7 and a half years and I still picture him
	walking thru my door. It's weird because I've had alot
	of dreams of running into him lately. They are very
	upsetting.

							mike

    The topic of lost loved ones.. is.. a tough one. I never thought of it
    when I created this thread... but my dad died 4 years ago at 46 of
    Leukemia. There are no words to describe the loss of a father and a
    best friend....
    
    I have to stop now...
    
    James

    I have two things I wish I had; not certain which I'd pick if limited
    to one.
    
    Although married for 19 years and wanting kids, it wasn't in the cards
    for me, even after 7 years of testing, hoping, and disappointment.  I
    think that's one of my biggest regrets - I love kids and always wanted
    my own.  That's probably why I have godkids scattered all over the US! 
    Would have adopted but we never stayed in one place long enough to get
    through all the paperwork and waiting periods.
    
    The second wish would be to have my dad back, if even for only one
    night.  As a little kid I'd watch he and my mom dance - and try as
    I would, I never could get my feet to go in the right directions.  He
    always kidded me about having two left feet!  Now I've been ballroom
    dancing for almost 10 years and would give my eye-teeth to be able to
    dance one waltz and one foxtrot with him, just to prove to him that I
    really was able to find that right foot, even if it did take 20 years
    to accomplish!
    
    Pat
    

    
    If I could change one thing ..... I've have waited a year or two longer
    for my "first love" until he was ready too.  We still talk, and that
    spark is still there - but life is in the way - maybe someday.
    
    As for the eye-laser therapy keep in mind that it doesn't "last" that
    long, and as you get in your late 30s and all your friends need reading
    glasses, so will you too .... I just spend the money on more
    comfortable/better looking glasses (well, I hope they look okay!).
    
    Or maybe to not be diabetic ....
    
    -Patty
    

	My up-close vision is going anyways. I'd rather have my
	distance vision and put up with reading glasses than the
	other way around.

						mike in L.A.
						35 (crossing over to
						late 30's soon enough)